Well I celebrated my b-day this weekend, even though my b-day was on the 20th of this month.  So I went over to Skip's on Fri. and we drank till about midnight,  we were pretty toasty.  Thank god I live just around the corner.  I went out last night with my frienf Jen to a hospital party, which was serving free drinks.  So needless to say we go pretty toasty again.  We went out to this new club and danced all night, which was a blast since I haven't done that in like forever!!  Than of course IHOP after.  Man do my legs hurt like hell today.  I has heels on so my feet are killing me too.  Man I feel like an old lady.  I guess I have to do that more often to get myself use to it again.  But I think I'll rest for a while, since I have a four day weekend.  I start every other Sat. next week.  So I can have more days off during the week with the baby.  So I'm excited about that.  Well I guess that's enough for now...

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Well I'm finally back after a long pause from the blogging world.  Well lets see let me catch you up on what I've been up to in the last 4 months.  I had my baby boy Myron on the 13th of Sept. at 0824, weighing in at 8lbs 10 ounces and 20 inches long.  Big baby I know, I carried for what seemed 3 years!!  It was a scheduled C-section, since I had one with my son Marquez I opted to have another with this baby, why take the chance.  It was nice having it scheduled versus an emergency.  Even though it ws a little scary, since I do work in the O.R. and I know what goes on in there. The surgery was right on schedule and went perfectly well.  It was after that sucked so bad!!  Man having a baby in your 30's versus your 20's is much different.  It was much more harder to recover this time than last time.  It seemed like I recovered so much quicker with Marquez.  I'm still trying to recover from this one. Plus I much more fatter.  I lost all my weight so easily last time, this time not so lucky. I'm a cow, yes I joined a gym, but haven't gone yet.  I have been sick these past few days, so I have an excuse.  Anyways, it was a little tough getting use to a baby after waiting 8 years to have another one.  And Marquez was such a good baby.  Myron was a little more stubborn and had a little colic.  He spit up quit a bit also, so we switched his formula like 4 times.  But I got some great info. from a nurse I worked with about how the Target brand formula had the same exact ingrediants as the Enfamil Lipil formula nd cost more than half the less.  So allan and I took a little trip to Target to see for ourselves and of course she was right.  So we switched his formula and now he rarely spits up at all.  And we save money too.  So it was a win win situation for all.  Now he's 4 months, today as a matter of fact and is doing great.  He is such a good baby and smiles all the time.  He does have a little attitude, which I have no idea  where he gets it from:)  Plus I swtich jobs again to Boswell, and I'm on the heart team again, and I love it.  We're pretty busy, but nothing like my other job. 

And I finally gave in a let Allan move in.  He's such a great dad and a huge help.  He even gets up with the baby in the middle of the night and lets me sleep.  He also cooks dinner for me and the kids when he can.  I'm just not a cook, so if he doesn't do it than the poor kids will get hot dogs and mac and cheese.  Ok I know how to make corn dogs too.  Well I'll make sure to keep you all updated on new photos of the baby and family.  So I'm going to try to be better at the blogging so Skip will get off my back.  So until next time...

Only two more days and no more being fat and pregnant.  (Ok I'll still be fat, but just for a little while I hope).  I know it's been ages since I put in an entry, but I work night's now and I sleep untill I absolutely have only enough time to get ready (damn pregnancy). But now I'm off for 2 whole months, so I will try to keep up on my blog entry.  Even though I have no exciting news to write about.  Just that I hate being pregnant and I can't wait till Wed.  Well school finally started for my son, he's in 3rd grade.  I can't believe it!!!  This year seems to be going much better than last  year.  He hated his teacher last year and since he was out of school for 2 extra months, because we lived in MS. We were there during hurricane Katrina and moved here in Nov.  So he started school in Nov. after being out for 5 months.,  so he had a hard time getting started again. He really likes his teacher this year, I think she makes it fun to learn and so he likes it much better.  He's been doing so well so far.  Two weeks in a row he got 100% on his spelling test.  I was so proud of him, because they are not easy.  I have problem with some of them. 

I'm waiting for the carpet cleaner guys to get here.  They are suppose to be here between 10:00-12:00 today.  I wanted to get the carpets cleaned before the baby comes. I really just want to crawl back into bed since I'm beat tired.  I was up all night on Sun. with contractions and didn't get any sleep at all.  So I got up to make sure all my son's school clothes were ready for when I'm in the hospital and making sure laundry was done.  So then I called Skip early and said we were coming over just in case I had to go to the hospital. I know I should of called the babies daddy, but just didn't feel like it.  We'r estill good friends and we get along great, but I'll be around him enough when the baby is here.  He's going to stay for little while after the baby is born.  Which I'm really not looking forward to, even though it'll help me out and be a little easier.  I just hate having someone live with me.  Or maybe it's jsut because I don't want to live with him...who knows. Well I guess that's it for now, I'm starting to get really tired and can't see the screen anymore. Until next time....

Well we're finally getting rid of the van.  Allan should be picking up his new car this week sometime or on Sat. I'm not sure which day since I'm sort of out of the loop of things, except for signing the paper work.  Which I'm still not happy about at all!!!  For those of you that don't know the history let me catch you up. First of all I decided to get the van since I'm about to have a baby in Sept.  Allan has a son and of course my Marquez.  Well at he time Allan was moving in and everything was hunky dory.  So I got the van in my name and we were both going to pay for it.  I already have a car that is payed off.  Anyways I decided I wasn't ready to move in with anybody, baby or not.  So I told him...and he moved back to his place.  Well of course he didn't have a car because he got in a wreck and his car was totalled.  So here I was paying for a car and not even using it and it was in my name and he had.  Ok Ok, it was my bright idea, but you live and learn.  So I told him that it was time to get his own car and that I was tired of paying for something I'm not even using.  So of course he agreed, but the bad thing is thatI still have to have the car in my name since his credit is sooo bad.  But I told him he's going to have to fix that

up and get it refinanced in his own name by 6 months. The good thing is Allan is a good guy and I know he'll pay on it and everything, but I still don't like the fact that I have to have my name on this car.  I know that he needs it and all, but damn take care of your damn business or he wouldn't be in this mess.  So of course

that goes back to my theory that I could do better on my owm and I can.  I hate to sound mean, but it sure is a turn off.

Alright enough bitching about that.  I can't believe I updated my blog twice in one week...wow I must have too much time on my hands.  Plus I'm going to be a little late for work since I'm waiting for her to cook the spring rolls she's making for a going away party we're having for a girl at work.  Man they smell good too. She makes the best spring rolls!!!  Well she's almost done so that means off to work...

Well it'a a little after 0230 Monday morning and I'm still up, oh and so is Marquez.  Now that I'm on this evening shift I'm up pretty much all night.  And what's even more pathetic is that I've been watching the Jewelry Channel.  I even bought something!!  I'm starting to feel like an old bitty.  Marquez complains a lot about it, so I'm trying to limit myself, so tonight has been Fresh Prince of Bel Air.  We just got done eating a late snack, so we'll probably be up for a while. 

My job is still going well, except that I got my first "real" pay check this past week and it was pretty depressing.  I got such a HUGE pay cut that it hurt a little.  But I'm soooo much happier, and much more well rested.  And the people are so much nicer.  Me and a few girls went over to another girl I work with (Cecilia), on Friday night.  Of course they all got drunk and did shots, while I sat back and watched.  I still had a great time, but I really can't wait till I have this baby!!  I did have a little glass of wine, that I babied all night.  Needless to say to say I didn't get home until almost 5 in the morining.  Well  there's not much excitment happening in my life at the moment.  I'm sure has time goes by I'll be able to get into something I can really write about.  So until then just my everyday boring life.  You know staying home renting movies, and eating way too much even for a pregnant person.  Did I say  can't wait till I have this baby!!  I really don't know what's going on with the font it's doing all sorts of crazy stuff.  Who knows, I'm always pressing keys I'm not suppose to.  Look at me I'm babbling cause I'm getting tired, so I should go for now....

Well I thought it was a bout time I put in another entry since it's been a while.  I only have a few minutes since I'm still getting ready to go work.  I have to go in a little early for some sort of inservice.  Don't ask me what it's about cause I have no idea.  I'm really liking this evening shift.  We go in at finish the remaining surgery cases of the day and restock the rooms, getting them ready for the morning.  Then we pretty much just sit and chit chat, eat for the rest of the night.  It's much calmer than the other job and the people are much nicer.  I also heard we may be getting are night differential at 1500.  I think it starts a 5 or 6 now, so that would be a nice little pay raise.  So all in all I think I made the right decision and I feel so much better a well rested.  Plus it seems I have more time to spend with my son.  I'm not sure how it will be when schoool starts, but I'll worry about that when it comes. 

Only 3 more months...till the baby is here.  Man I am so ready.  I'm getting so fat and swollen. I know it has nothing to do with how much I'm eating:)  But I'm embarrassed to say how much I've gaoned,s o I'll keep tha tbit of information to myself.  I'll just say I can't wait till he gets here.  I still have so much to do.  Like get the room ready, and of course gettign the rest of the things that I need.  I have always been a last minute person so I probably won't do untill the last minute.  Well I got to get ready for another day at work so untill next time

Well tomorrow wil be two whole weeks that I have been at my new job.  I really think I made the right decision.  the people are nice, I don't work as hard and I've had more time to spend with my son.  Ok the pay is wayyyyyy lower than what I was making, but I don't care.  I'm just glad to not be working so hard and not being at home.  I just really need to learn how to budget my money.  So I'm going to really really try hard.  I don't know where my monew goes.  I'm not a big shopper at all and I don't go anywhere.  But I do waste money, and again I have no idea where I put it.  Well things are going to be different!!! I'm going to buckel down and figure out my finances.

Man, I really would rather be doing something else.  I hate anything to do with bills.  Oh well.

I've decided to go ahead and turn in the van we bought, well I bought in March.  It's judt too much money and the gas prices are ridiculous, even though I don't really drive it.  So I called Alan yesterday and told him that we need to turn it in.  We'll take a lose, well more like he'll take a lose because he's getting a car in his name. 

Well I just wanted to share withyou all how happy and broke I am with my new job.  Until next time...

It's so nice to be lazy and have no plans on this holiday weekend.  Skip, Marquez, and I went to see X-Men 3 yesterday.  I thought it was pretty good, but they left a lot of things out.  I guess I just wanted more.  But all in all I liked it.  Now I can't wait to see Pirates of the Caribbean.  That looks like it's going to to be really good.  I have nothing planned but to lounge around with Skip and Marquez and watch movies all day, oh and of course eat. I think I want to see the Omen, since I saw the preview of the remake and it looks reallky good as well.  I think it comes out this year in the 6th of July.  Which comes out to be 6/6/06.  CREEPY!!  My friend Tiffani is pregnant and is due on that day.  Man talk about really creepy.  But thank god she's having a c-section and scheduled her section on the 1st of July.   I might be a little hestitant to meet baby Damian. Man Iu couldn't sleep at all last night.  I think I got at least 3 times to pee.  This darn baby is weighing on my bladder.  Man I can't wait to have this kid.  Nothing against being pregnant, but I am done!! Plus I'm ready for a nice big alcoholic drink.  Sometimes it's just nice after a long stressful day at work to come home and have a nice stiff drink to get you through the night.  Only a few more months!!

Well I guess I should go and get ready to rent some movies..plus I'm getting hungry.  It's the baby of course:)

Well  I finally at my new job.  I started orientation on Mon. and half a day on Tues.  So now I'm in the O.R. trying to get a feel for my co-workers and the docs.  The training nurse hasn't really had much for me to do but this stupid scavenger hunt for supplies which is boring and ridiculous.  Plus it's not very organized, they have sh** all ove rthe place.  But today I was able to scrub for a little while.  A wound debridment and a breast biopsy...wooo hooo!!  Exciting stuff (that was sarcastic).  I think both cases total lasted 30 mins.  I'll be on days again next week before I start 1430-1100. The people seem really nice, definately nicer than the folks in Scottsdale.  Again I can't stress the fact that I'm only 5 mins.  I'm sooo excited about that, if not anything else.

Well today was my soN Marquez's last day of school.  I think I'm more excited htan he is about it.  Yes he's pretty excited, but I'm just gald there is no more homework for a while. Ok 2nd grade homework isn't too complicated, but you know how you look too much into stuff that is so ridiculously easy.  Man you can sure screw up some 2nd grade homework.  Boy I can't wait till next year:) Well I'm gonna go for now.  My step-dad Skip comes home from New York today.  Looks liek he had a good trip.  So I think I'll cook him some dinner since my mom is going to bingo...what a surprise.

Well I know you all have been patiently wating for me to update my blog.  So here I am updating it finally.  Well let's see where do I start, it's been so long since I wrote that I don't know where to begin.  First of all I found that I am having a boy.  Which is exciting, I wanted another boy.  Well I really didn't care, but I always said that if I had another child I wanted a boy.  So there ya go, it's a boy:)  I went ta few weeks ago with my mom to Burlinton Coat Factory to check out the Baby Depot and picked up a crib.  Well actually me and my step-dad picked it out originally, and I brought my mom back to get it.  She actually bought it for me, and the mattress which was very nice. Also I got a few baby things, clothes, bottle, pacifier, you know the few essentials. I guess I should start buying diapers since I'll definately need those.  Only 4 more months, man it's seems like a lifetime away. 

Ok now for the next excititng news, I finally got a new job. Well ok I only put in for one job, so it wasn't like I was trying really hard.  But I've been wanting to leave for a while.  Since if you don't already know, I hated my job.  It sucked!!!  The hours, management and just the all around horrble morale in the place.  I'm so glad that I'm almost done.  I only gave a week notice, so their pretty pissed about that, but I just can't stay any longer.  And if I don't go now I'll have to wait another month for orientation. There is no way I was going to wait another month because this job is getting worse and worse everyday.  And the best part of this new job is tha tit's only 5 mins. away:) I an so excited abuot it that I can hardly restrain myself.  Also it's 1430-2300 shift which I'm looking forward to not getting up at the crack of dawn. 

This summer I'm putting my son in the boys and girls club.  I don't really think it's a good idea for him to saty with my mom all summer.  I think they would end up killin gthemselves.  Plus my son will have something to do for the week while I'm at work.  The best part is that we can spend our mornings together before he goes and he'll probably be up waiting for me when I get home.  I don't really see him much now, since I work all the time and am on call everyday I work just about.  I'm on call this weekend:( But it's my last call at this hospital...Yeah!!  I hope I don't get killed this weekend.  I'm on with two bitches, so it'll make this weekend praticularly hard.  But only a few more days of those bitches and then I'm off to see my dad in Wisconsin on Wed. and then I'm done with that job!!! I think they're mad at me for quitting, but I don't care.

Also my sister had her baby on May 8th. A baby boy, so I'm going to see her and the little guy, Ezra.  I 'm pretty excited to see my family in Wisconsin, since i haven't seen them in a few years.  And I think I just need some time away before I start this new job, and after leavign this awful job.  So let me see it there is anything else happening in my life right now, oh yeah my turtles died last night, Sam and Pat.  we were'nt sure if they if they were boys or girls so we just named them a boy/girl name.  I'm pretty bummed about it.  So maybe I'll look to get some more.  I think they were too young.  The turtle I bought for Skip is doing great. He's eating and getting so big.  My mom picked him out, so maybe I'll have my mom pick out my next turtle, since for some reason I can't keep anything alive.  I bought fish they died, a frog he died, and now the turtles. Maybe I should just give up on that.  Well thats enough for now, until next time....

So today I get home with a note waiting for me from my sons teacher saying that my son said something inappropriate to a girl in his class.  Apparrently he asked the little girl if her panties went up her thing.  I couldn't believe it!!!  that my son would actually say something that digusting.  He's no angel by all means, he's hard headed, stubborn and has a mouth that won't quit.  But all in all he's not really no different than any other 7 yr old, almost 8.  He says a boy at school told him to tell him to say that to the girl.  So of course I had to give him the speech about not doing what your friends say and being a leader not a follower.  And of course i had to lecture him on how dissapointed I was in him and how that was so disrespectful to say to  little girl or any girl at that.  So when I got done shaming him as much as I could I grounded him from everything, video games, snacks(candy), playing outside with his friends, and t.v.(except educational programs).  I hate it though, because it's like a punishment on me and my mom.  I think I will let him go to his friends house by the end of the week though.  that way him and my mom won't kill themselves.

Man I'm really going to hate when I have to talk about sex with him.  I'm just good with that sort of thing.  Oh well, I hope I still have a while for that.  But these days who knows.

Well my step-dad is gone for a month to Norway and Austria.  So now I'm here having to deal with mom and Marquez.  I can't really complain because he has to hear it most of the time.  But at least my mom can go and leave for a while or a day or two, which ever she prefers. But now since I'm on call like everyday this schedule it sucks for her and me.  So of course I got bitched at most of the day today about that.  Skip hurry back, PLEASE!!!  But after she finally let up she cooked for me and so it hasn't been too bad.  I'm staying with her most of the week, so at least I'll get some home cooked Thai food.  She's such a good cook.  Well I guess I should go and get my son in the bath tub abd get ready for bed. 

1. How tall are you barefoot? 5 feet 3/4 inches   2. Have you ever smoked heroin? no, too scarred. Plus I heard that stuff will mess you up...no thanks!!!   3. Do you own a gun?  My friend gave me one along time ago, but gave it to someone else when I moved to Alaska   4. Do you have a crush on someone? Nope, I rarely have crushes on anyone except LL Cool J   5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"? Nope, if they don't like me than I really don't care   6. What do you think of hot dogs? I love hotdogs, but I have to be in the mood for them   7. What's your favorite Christmas song? DOn't ahve on, I really don't like Christmas music....bah humbug!!!   8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Coffee w/cream no sugar   9. Do you do push-ups? Not revently   10. Have you ever done ecstasy? Nope, never had a desire   11. How many people have you kissed? Man I would be all day trying to remember and again I couldn't be certain with a number. I would say A LOT.   12. Do you like painkillers? Not really they make me jittery for some reason, so I try not to take them even if I can help it.   13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? Well Really I don't need a secret weapon to lure the opposite sex. I need on to lure them away   14. Do you own a knife? Only the ones in the kitchen drawer   15. Do you have A.D.D.?  No, I don't think so, I'm pretty focused    16. Middle Name? Ann, after my grandmother   17.  What would you buy if you won the MegaMillions? I would buy a nice house just the way I want it, not too big though.  Make sure my son was set for college and probably travel all over the world.  And hire a nanny:)   18. Name the last 3 things you have bought today? Nothing today, but I'm about to go pig out a Red Lobster   19. Name five drinks you regularly drink?  Water, Coffee, Tea, Diet Coke and falvored water   20. What time did you wake up today? 10:20 A.M.   21. Current worry? Too many to list...job, baby, son, money........   22. Have you ever been in love?  I think so, but I'm beginnign to thikn i don't know what that means any more   23. Current hate? I don't hate anything, maybe my job at the moment   24. Favorite place to be? In my king size bed   25. Least favorite place to be? WORK   26. Where would you like to go?  Everywhere   27. Do you own slippers?  Tons, but I never wear them. I don't like anything on my feet when I'm at home   28. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years? I have no idea!! I never think that far ahead   29. Do you burn or tan? Tan   30. Favorite color? Blue   31. Would you be a ninja? I think it would be fun being a ninja and kicking some butt.  Well only bad guys of course   32. What are you listening to right now? Skip's music on his blog, I have no idea who it is and Lilo and Stitch cartoon my son is watching on t.v.   33. What songs do you sing in the shower? I usually don't sing in the shower   34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? I was terrified of Bloody Mary that my dad use to have to sit in the room with me till I fell asleep. I don't think I got over that for years.   35. What's in your pockets? I have no pockets right now, but if did I don['t usually ever have anything in my pockets   36. Last thing that made you laugh? Probably something that Skip said   37. Best bed sheets you had as a child? Raggady Ann and Andy sheets   38. Worst injury you've ever had? When I was little girl I had a sledding injury and hit a house backwards and bruised my back pretty bad that I couldn't walk for  a few days.   39. Who is the last person you talked to? Skip ont he phone   40. How many TVs do you have in your house? 4   41. Who is your loudest friend? Tiffani   42. Who is your most silent friend? I don't have any silent friends   43. Does someone have a crush on you?  I don't know   44. Do you wish on stars? No   45. Could you run a marathon? I would love to run a marathon, but in my condition I would have to wait a while plus train since I haven't ran in a very long time.   46. What is your favorite candy?  I don't have a favorite candy   47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding? Both time I got married I didn't have any music, and I never plan to  marry again   48. What song do you want played at your funeral? I really don't care, I'll be dead   49. What were you doing 12AM last night? In bed watching t.v.   50. What was the First thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? Wonder what I'm gonna eat today

Well it's about 11:55 A.M. Fri. afternoon and I just got out of bed.  Man I really needed that.  Well I actually got up this morning(at 5:45) and that was late for me since I usually have to be a t work at 6:30.  Well actually I was going to be late since we didn't have to come in until 7:30, but I wasn't aware of that untill I had already called and said I was going to be late.  So I called my boss and left her a message that I was going to be a little late for work(since it takes me like an hour to get to work, especially in Phoenix traffic). So I preceeded to get dressed and my boss called and said I can take the day off.  I was so happy since the night before I worked 17 hours and I was on my feet ALL day.  My first surgery case was a triple valve repalacement with a coronary graft.  It took a grulling 8 hours.  I was so beat, and that after we got done with that and of course cleaning the room and getting it set up since we can never get any help in that department. For some reason the staff hates the heart team, for reasons I have no idea, since that stemmed way back before I started there.  Then after we got done with cleaning the room we had to go and do an emergency heart with 4 coronary grafts, which took a while since we were working with one of the slowest docs, but nicest last night. So I didn't get out of ther untill 11:30 and like I said before it takes me like an hour to get to work and back home. So needless to say I was exhausted.  I don't mind working those types of hours once and a while, but sincle I'm almost 5 months pregnant it's not easy. My feet still hurt and my back is killing me.  I know I'm whinning, but everyone can whin every now and then.  Well no call this weekend, I'm so exciteted. Hopefully I can catch that movie Slither with Skip.  If I can find some thing for my son to do, since he's 7 almost 8 (26 April) and probably shouldn't see that movie.

My sons b-day is on 26th and I think I'm going to have a little b-day party for him at the house.  He doesn't know a whole bunch of kids so I think it'll be safe.  I can't believe my baby is goign to be 8, and I have no idea what to get him.  I try to ask but he doesn't really care.  Well I should go and get ready, I'm suppose to go and get my toes done with my mom, but who knows when she'll be home.

Well I finally told Allan how I felt about being overwhelmed about this whole relationship.  That I needed my space and that I wasn't ready to move in just now.  I did tell him that it wasn't him that it was me, that I was going to try to work on it.  But I did also say that I could be by myself for the rest of my life.  And of course he was very undrstanding and sweet, which made me feel like an ass.  But I do feel much better to get that off my just.  I feel really bad though, he's such a great guy and anyone would be lucky to have him.  Oh well, that's just me.

Well I'm getting ready to watch Deal or No Deal with Skip, we are hooked!!!!  I also make Skip watch American Idol, which he says he hates, but I think he,s secretly a big fan.  He just doesn't want to admit to it.  Come on Skip you don't have to hide from me, you can come out of the closet.  I won't tell a soul:)

Well that's all for now....

Thank Go It's Friday!!!!!!  Not only that but I'm not on call all weekend....YEAH!! But next week is going to suck really bad.  I'm on call on Mon, Wed, and the whole weekend:(  So I better cherish this weekend and do absolutely nothing but sit on my big butt.  Oh and go out for crab legs with  Skip...mmmmm.  My mom will probably be at bingo instead of going to eat crab legs with us, but that's ok.  She doesn't know what she's missing.  And Renee if you're reading this you should come eat crab legs with us. 

I was off yesterday and got so much done.  I went grocery shopping, got a new cell phone, got the carpets cleaned in my new van, got the dog groomed....um let me see what else...oh yea I even cleaned my house.  I still have a ton of stuff I still need to do, but I guess it can wait.  Allan comes back on Sunday night...I think.  I'm trying to be excited, but I'm just not. I loved having the house to myself all week and it was kept clean.  I feel bad, but I just can't help it.  I should tell him I'm not really ready for him to move in yet, but I don't want to hurt his feelings.  Poor guy, he never did anything but treat me nice and I want to tell him not to move in.  Oh well, he'll just have to get over it.  He's a grown man and he can take it. It's not like I want to break up or anything.  I just want my house to myself now and than.  

Ok enough about that. I've been thinking about changing my career field lately.  I've been a surgiacl tech. for 10 yrs. and I love my job.  But I'm starting to get so burnt out.  We work our ass off and hardly have time to relax.  This past month we did 66 hearts!!!  that's crazy, even though we're getitng a 10 % bonus, maybe a 15 %.  My boss is trying to work that out. I really so have a great boss, she's very underatanding, especially when it comes to family.  So I'm always up and down with quitting or not.  I would hate to move closer and than have an horrible boss.  I think I'll make more of a final decision after the baby is born.  Oh and Renee, about that baby shower, you know i wouldn't have any problem not knowing anybody there.  I just thought i would tell you that in case you had any doubt:)  Oh that was horrible what your friend Nancy did to you.  But I wouldn't worry too much about it.  Now you know what you can say and not say.  Some people just feel the need to do things like that because they are really not happy with themselves, so they try to make drama in others lives.  So don't succumb to that, just remember to never let people like that in you life, they can only bring you down.  Keep them always at a distance.  Well anyway I should go and well do nothing:)  Untill next time....

Well today I'm spending the day home from work. Marquez was aup all night with a tummy ache, so I made much hard decision to stay home from work and care fro my sick son. He's actually much better now, but hw says his right side hurts a little.  But I think he will make a full recovery.  Right now he's playing on the Game Cube(some basketbal game)so I think I can rest assure and not worry too much. 

I have a doctor's appt today, my babby appt. actually.  Just to see if everything is going all right for the baby.  I'm sure it is, just getting fatter and fatter:(  I went out this weekend and bought some maternith clothes, which are pretty cute I might add. Oh and Megan, I would love a  web site for some Seven maternity jeans if you have it. But I can't get too much because I'll never wear them again.  I know I will NEVER have another baby. 

I really loved being pregnant with Marquez, I felt great!!! This baby is kicking my butt, which has me worried about when it finally arrives.  Is he/she going to be more of a problem when it gets here??  I really hope not, but we will see, and of course I'll keep everyone update don that.  It's nice not to be at work, even though I was on call all weekend and didn't get called in.  But a 3 day weekend is always nice and appreciated.  Well I'm going to go see what my mom cooked...it smells sooo good and I'm pretty hungry right now.  Ok I'm hungry all the the time but that's not the point:)

I'm spending the weekend at my mom and Skip's house because I'm on call all weekend, and my babies daddy is out of town for a week.  I just love being at my mom's house, it's so comfortable.  It's not the fact that she makes me coffee breakfast and dinner or anything, I just love being here:) I know this sounds bad, but I'm kind of excited about not having anyone at my house and having the whole week to myself.  It's not that I don't like Allan's company(babies daddy), he's great and all, but I've been by myself for a long time, and I actually like being by myself.  I really think sometimes I'm just meant to be alone.  Well besides my children...I love being a mom and I'm very excited about having a another baby.  But I know that I'll be just fine by myself with the kids.  I know it sounds awful, but I'm not the typical woman who wants a great guy to love forever...YUK!!!  Or love me forever, I like doing my own thing and not having to worry about anyone else besides my own kids.

It's not like Allan requires alot. I'm hardly at home now and barely spend time with him(u would think he would get the hint), and he never complains. He's really a sweet guy, he massages my feet and back, cooks me dinner and does the laundry.  And like I said before he never complains.  Plus he's really good to my son Marquez and my son loves him very much.  That's why I think I really want to to work it out.  More for my son, he really needs a great guy in his life(besides his papa Skip). My poor guy has been through so much in his life and I don't want to put him through anymore heartache.  What woman wouldn't want a great guy like that.  I do feel really bad, because I know he really loves me and I know I'll never be able to return that type of love to him.  It's just not in me to love someone like that.  Oh well...don't want to dwell on it too much. I'm sure things will work out...somehow.

I'm looking to forward to not doing anything this weekend and watching movies and just pigging out.  So hopefully I won't get called into work. I'l keep my fingers crossed. 

Work is another thing...I love my job, but it's 40 mile away and alot of work.  I don't mind working hard, but sometimes I think to myself why I'm still doing this.  I pull about 100 hours of call per pay period and we have been so busy lately that you barely have time to live your life, because you're too tired to do anything. Or maybe I'm just hormonal and nothing makes me happy these days.  Who knows...who cares.  I think after the baby is born I'll probably look for another job closer to the house.  I think the drive is what really gets to me.  It takes me about 1 1/2 hours to get home everyday and it sucks.  Half the time I can barely stay up, so sun flower seeds have been my freind lately.  Well I guess I have said enough for the day, so untill next time...

Well I guess it's about time I update my blog, since yesterday I stayed in bed all day and did absolutely nothing!!  The fact that I'm pregnant might be a big factor of why I'm so damn tired all the time.  I ask myself all the time why I decided to do this again.  Man this baby is kicking my butt.  I am feeling much better now that I'm past my first trimester. I finally told my family(except my dad), so now I can tell everyone in the blog world.  Well I guess that just leaves my step-dad since he's the only one that visits my blog.  I really need to tell my dad that I'm pregnant.  Poor guy is always last to know.  When I was pregnant with my son Marquez, I didn't tell him until last.  It's not like he's not happy about, he's very supportive and great.  it's just hard, cause I'm still like daddy's little girl and I think like "my god he's gonna know I have sex".  I know it sounds stupid since I'm a 33 yr old grown woman, but still.

I even got a mini-van which I never thought in a million years that would ever happen.  But it's realy nice, so that helps a bit. Today me and Skip are going to see The Hills Have Eyes.  Hopefully it'll be a as gorry as everyone said it would be.  I love a good scary, gorry movie.  Well my mom made me some soup...mmmmmm. So I'll close for now...

You Have a Sanguine Temperament

You are an optimistic person who is easily content. You enjoy casual, light tasks - never wanting to delve too deep into anything. A bit fickle, it's easy for you to change plans or paths when presented with something better. You enjoy all of the great things life has to offer - food, friends, and fun. A great talker, you can keep the conversation going for hours. You are optimistic and sure of your success. If you fail, you don't worry about it too much. At your worst, you are vain. You are obsessed with your own attractiveness. A horrible flirt, you tend to jump into love affairs and relationship drama easily. You're very jealous - which just magnifies the craziness around you.